LORD, as Your Daughter

Dear LORD, as Your daughter, I sit before You today.
In awe.
In wonder.
In pleading.
Ashamed of my many failings, yet I sit in grace.

LORD, as your daughter, I feel fearful.
What will happen when I open my tightly clenched hands?
Will I be knocked off my feet when I give in to Your tide and lose myself to You, Almighty God?

LORD, as your daughter, I just want You.
I run from all the hinders and the sin that so easily entangles.  Sin that trips me up and leaves me facedown, unfocused from You.

LORD, as your daughter, I cast aside
the fleeting ideal of beauty
the green snake of popularity
the inflated ball of reputation
All these things that my peers think are so worthy, LORD, as Your daughter, I cast aside.

For You are all I want.
LORD, You are all I need.
You are the lifter of my head, my fortress, and my strength.
You call me to Your grand plan
To reach, to love, to burn bushes of sin while setting the world on fire for You. 
You call me to paths of adventure, risk, thrill, and great rewards because of You.


Yet, why do I still selfishly clench my fists and refuse You?

I am scared, LORD.  My trust in You truly is weak.  I do not want to hand over the reins and lose control.

But my heart cry is for You.

LORD, as Your daughter, I relinquish myself to You.

 © 2013 Deborah Hope Shining


I definitely don't want this to be a monologue. What are your thoughts? Questions? Ideas?