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Have you ever wondered if you're just missing God's plan?
The frantic hope that you are doing right-
The incessant trying, trying to do right to find right to be right to have right to want right-
I've been there. (Actually, I am there now).
It's a mess, right?
Have you questioned whether you're making the right decisions about... well, basically anything?
The nagging guilt that you should be doing something else-
The constant worry that you are messing something up big time-
The hatred toward your weakness as, even though you're not exactly sure what right always looks like, you know what your doing for sure isn't even related (nope, not even a second cousin twice removed).
I've been there. (Actually, I am there now).
The trying.
The self-put pressure.
The exhaustion.
The dread of having to try to do it all right another day-
The dread of knowing that you should stop your crazy trying to do it right
And trying your hardest to try to stop trying.
Yeah.
Not so good.
I have one word for you, reader, on the other side of this screen here where my fingers, tired after another day of trying, type on this teal-silicone covered keyboard:
doubt.
We're fearing - fearing that we're messing up, fearing that we shouldn't be fearing but fearing that we actually are. We fear that we are weak and that we'll never be strong. We fear that we'll always be striving and never arriving. We fear that we will only fall and be incapable of getting up. We fear that we are missing where we are supposed to be walking in the first place.
What is that fear?
It's a doubting - a doubting that God really is who He said He is and that He. is. enough.
He says that there is just no fear in love and that perfect love drives that fear straight outta here (1 John 4:18).
Our weakness is actually beautiful, for He says that when we are weak, (oh yeah!), then, we are strong because His power is made perfect in that weakness (2 Corinthians 12:9-10).
Where does this strength come from, anyway? From Him who gives us all the strength we need (Philippians 4:13).
Maybe what's really at the root of our issues, of our trying, of our fear is this:
We need more of Jesus.
Maybe it's not more full-force trying in our own strength that we need;
maybe we really need more of falling into His faithful arms even as we fail.
For He. is. God.
Maybe we should be still and remember that more often (Psalm 46:10).
Maybe we need less of the details and more of Him.
Maybe we need to have more faith - faith not only in the promises God has for us but faith in who He Himself is.
He is faithful (1 Thessalonians 5:24).
He is a Might Warrior (Zephaniah 3:17).
He is a consuming fire (Deuteronomy 4:24).
He is unchangeable (Numbers 23:19).
What more could we need?
Just give us more of Jesus.
© 2014 Deborah Hope Shining
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I definitely don't want this to be a monologue. What are your thoughts? Questions? Ideas?